Awrsome!!!
(Source: thethinspoproject, via oneday-iwillbe)
C'est Moi!
Im Crystal...
:| part 3
A lot of this anger and hurt has recently just came back up because of all that’s gone on with my sisters and their divorces. Reminds me of my pain and hurt and makes me want to scream. I can’t help it. I am a woman. Human with a broken soul hidden behind a smile.
:| part 2
Hate the fact that I loved and trusted those guys. One with my heart and the other as a friend.
Both have disappointed me. Hurt me. Betrayed me. And I don’t know what to do to make myself feel better.
Yeah sure, many will say I just have to move on. Get passed it. Say those guys are jerks etc. BUT ITS NOT EASY!! Which is why I no longer give that advice and haven’t for a while.
It’s like I want them to know my hurt and want them to feel it, but I also don’t want them to feel like they have some control over me.
This is the part that just tears me up inside. Why I don’t wanna tell any of my friends because I know what they’ll say and think, this bitch is still talking about these dudes?
I guess I just need closure…but how do I get it?
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How does somebody just do that? Pretend to be your friend, be involved in your life, say they care for you and that their intentions are good. Then once they get what they need, do what they want… They just leave. Like nothing meant anything at all. Give you bullshit excuses that read “oh feel sorry for me” but in reality its all a front. I don’t know what I do to get myself in these situations where I get hurt. I am not asking for pity, I’m asking for truth. Am I too giving? Alone? Desperate for attention and love? I don’t know what to do to change things. I rather just give up and be alone to avoid getting hurt.
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Trying to understand why men hurt the women that gave them their all the most & what they mean when they say it wasnt their intention…
I don’t think anyone understands how serious this issue is. Don’t let my smile fool you into thinking that everything is okay. It’s not. Right now all I see is black and white. Looking for that answer. That miracle, that will bring the color back to sight. (Taken with instagram)
Don’t judge me for my actions when you yourself aren’t right.
I’m the kinda girl that wears minimal makeup and gloss or no makeup at all. The kinda girl that lets her hair run wild. Wears a smile regardless of her situation. The kinda girl who has learned to embrace her curves and accept herself for who she is and what she is not. <3
Venting
I don’t need a kid to complete my life. I have no interest in getting married or having kids right now. I’m only saying this because it keeps getting brought up to me. Let me at least establish a real relationship, be financially stable, be selfish and get myself together before even attempting to be responsible for someone elses life. Let me get a feel of accomplishment and let ME be.#ventsession
